Have a headache? Feeling insecure about your body? Climb a mountain.

These guys love me so beautifully it hurts sometimes!

These guys love me so beautifully it hurts sometimes!

Last night I spoke in front of a room of 100 people about a Health and Happiness event I am helping to plan.  I was very anxious about this and could feel my heart trying to pound right out of my chest while I was speaking.  Afterwards, I had a horrible headache.  I thought maybe it was the wine–too many sulphites?  Or the nerves or that I had consumed too much caffeine during the day.  What ever it was, it was still here this morning.  Also lingering was a feeling of dissatisfaction with my body.

I rarely get to wear my big girl clothes (read–anything but yoga pants or jeans) and was excited to wear a pretty over coat I scored years ago at a consignment shop.  It has always fit me perfectly.  But last night when I went to button it, it was a very tight squeeze.  My heart sank.  I almost immediately felt humiliated and those old feelings of wanting to hide under my covers came rushing over me (not great when you are about to speak in public).  I decided to wear the coat anyway, unbuttoned (we’re having an early spring after all).

Soon as I dropped my little charges off at school this morning, Leif, Sochi and I headed to Tiger  Mountain.  For the three hours we were on the mountain, I forgot about the stupid coat and feeling horrible about my body.  I thought about how strong I was to carry my little boy on my back up the trail.  I laughed watching how joyfully Sochi’s little nub of a tail wiggled as she sprinted up and down, stopping to sniff and then running back to loop around us.  I feel this freedom from my insecurities while I’m running also.  This is one of many reason running and hiking is so vital to me–it keeps me real.

I can still haul this guy up mountains!

I can still haul this guy up mountains!

Mt. Tacoma--the Native name for the mountain--Mother of the Waters.  She is gorgeous, majestic, strong...and doesn't give an F if her overcoat fits :)

Mt. Tacoma–the Native name for the mountain–Mother of the Waters. She is gorgeous, majestic, strong…and doesn’t give an F if her overcoat fits 🙂

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