Cape Town Bound July 25!

I bought my Cape Town ticket this week!  It was scary.  Really scary.  There are about a million and one emotions associated with Cape Town.  On the one hand, it is a place of peace for me.  I feel at home squished between the mountain and the ocean or between two mama’s in a crowded minibus.  I LOVE sipping wine or roiboos with my friends. I get high on mountain runs and watching baboons munch in the trees.  It is my heaven in so many ways.

The last time I was in Cape Town, I was in a bit of an emotional conundrum.  It was a very intense time in my life. I left many material and non material things when I left, thinking I was going to be back soon.  Two months after leaving South Africa, I found out I was pregnant.  The last few years have been full of pregnancy and being a mama.  Its been wild.  Its been really wild.  And I’ve loved it.  I love being Leif’s mama more than anything.  The thing is though, to be Leif’s mama in the best way possible, I must also allow my heart to be full.  So, despite my anxiety of leaving my sweet boy for two weeks to fly across the world to South Africa, I know I need it.  I need to revisit some of the things I left there 3 years ago.  Maybe some I will take back for myself…and others I will just remember and leave them again with more of a healed heart.

I suppose this trip to Cape Town is a bit of a pilgrimage for me.  I am also vowing to make sure my next trip does not take so long to take.  I am in charge of my own destiny–if a visit to Cape Town every year or two keeps my soul fresh, then it is a small sacrifice to make spending a bit of money on a flight and kissing my family goodbye for a couple of weeks (or bringing them with me when the time is right).

This is where my heart settles in so peacefully and heave surrounds me.

This is where my heart settles in so peacefully and heave surrounds me.

This Moutain.

This Moutain.

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